Wednesday, October 28, 2009

How to Bloom in the Dark Months

Fruits of my Abundance, encaustic, 6" x 6"

Sometimes it's hard to think of ways in which nature might provide abundance as we fall into autumn and winter. I do miss the "fruits" of spring and summer. The blooming and new growth help me feel that I am growing and blooming, too!

The other day when taking a walk with my friends J and her little D, we walked through crunchy leaves and the sun even graced us with its soothing rays. That walk felt fairly fruitful as it so happens. And while the leaves on the sidewalks were in a sense "dead," they represent renewal as they will decay and help the soil for the spring. Fruitfulness to come! After the walk, I began to think of the ways in which I was going to create a sense of abundance even now, in the midst of fall. How can I bloom without a certain amount of sunlight? I'll create inner light, I thought. how to do that is the next phase of my process.

How do you experience or manifest fruits of abundance during these cooler, soggy days?

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Going BIG!

I had an itch today. This itch would not be satisfied without my attempting to create a large art piece. I guess this desire is reflecting a current feeling inside of me. I'm feeling like I want to be a bit larger these days, too. I want to take up more space, feel expansive, reach out in all directions, arms spread wide.

I tend to work small and small-ish. Today, though, I pulled out a large-ish rectangular canvas and painted with arcylic and then coated it in encaustic wax. Here are the results of my BIG efforts (click on each image for a closer view):

Leaves, Booms, and Roots, encaustic painting on canvas, 15" x 30"

Here are some close up shots for more detail:

Be bold, be big, be expansive! See what happens when you take up space in your art and in your life!

Friday, October 16, 2009

Postage and Post Stage

Post Stage Discovery, encaustic, 6" x 6"

The First

It arrives five days early

with a sunflower on the front,

and inside, my name, a comma,

"Happy Birthday" bolded

(with exclamation point),

and just below, in tight cursive letters,

ink thick from pressing hard,

lines slanting up to the right:

I hope you have a wonderful birthday.

I don't know why you had to leave

my grandson

and break his heart,

but I wish you well.



Friday, October 09, 2009

Manifesting Abundance

Above is the lid to my abundance box for motivation. I created this box with the intention of enhancing my motivation for tackling certain challenging obstacles in my practice. In this box I have placed words, phrases, and objects which represent what I wish to accomplish. I've also placed little cheer-leading phrases to help me along, too: little bits of inspiration which remind me why it is that I want to do what I want to do. (BTW, isn't it funny how we often need motivation to do things that we WANT to do? Sometimes what we want is a little scary or challenging or there are difficult steps in the way of the desired end result.)

So I've just introduced you to an abundance box -- a box to represent what it is you wish to manifest in your life. I have created several of them throughout my life, particularly during transitions -- changes in jobs, relationships, etc. I've created a relationship box, a creativity box, a spirituality box, and a wealth box to name a few. All of these boxes have helped me to clarify my ideals, visions, priorities, and goals. I've also noticed that these boxes have helped healed some old wounds because they focus on positive intentions and not old, negative patterns or events.

I believe that one key way to attracting what you want is to identify what you want, set a positive intention for getting it, and creating a symbolic representation of your desires. An abundance box does just that: it becomes a receptacle for your dreams. The process of decorating the box and placing meaningful words and objects inside can also be revealing in and of itself. Perhaps we don't realize what it is we want until we explore our desires through art-making. For the box above, I began by creating a prosperity box for my business and then I took an interesting turn. The word motivation came to me full-force, like a crisp autumn wind, and I felt my body say a resonant "yes, I need motivation in order to get prosperity." Ah-ha. Who knew that's what I needed!

If you are at all interested in exploring the art of abundance box creation, please join me on October 17 for an afternoon of setting intentions, dreaming big dreams, and playing with the laws of attraction. I'd love to see what you wish to manifest!

Intentional Desires: An Abundance Box Workshop
Saturday, October 17, 1-4pm

For more information about this workshop, please click here.

Sunday, October 04, 2009

Saying Yes to Cone Bras

Actualizing Yes, mixed media collage on paper, 6" x 13.5"

Sometimes it's hard to say yes. I mean, sometimes it actually hurts to do it. My body is saying yes please!, but my mind is saying no way! and I'm stuck in the middle of a steaming puddle of doubt. I ask myself, can I really do this? am I really smart/talented/gifted enough to be an artist/healer/writer? don't I need to prove my worth before I take action? I have many more questions, and if you ever feel doubt like I do, I'm sure you can add your own questions here, too. And please do.

Today I've been reflecting on the fact that I have so many chances to say yes to myself in that confident, Madonna sort of way. Just the other day I was recalling with some friends how Madonna used to wear that cone-shaped bra during her performances. She wore those cones in front of millions of people, launching her breasts into the world, her voice belting with such assurance and conviction. To me, that is an example of saying, YES, in all caps, just like that. Yes to my vision, yes to my body, yes to my power, yes to my creativity, yes to my self-confidence, yes to not caring what others think.

So I was thinking about buying one of those cone-shaped bras--really considering it--but then I realized that I can probably say yes to myself with out it. I mean, I bet that thing is uncomfortable, and really, who wants a massage therapist with pointed breasts? Please don't answer that question.

I created the art piece above in my 6" x 13.5" landscape sketch pad while at my family cabin in the mountains this summer. I had just finished the piece (just glued on that Y-E-S, in fact) before the power went out, before my family sat in front of the fire telling stories of my dad, all of us missing him terribly. There were stories I hadn't heard before and many stories that I had heard many times before, yet I wanted to absorb them into my skin like lotion so they would become part of me. Apparently, my dad laughed a lot more than I knew. The kind of laughter that makes your stomach heave and your jaw lock in that open, gasping position. We spent three hours telling stories and laughing ourselves, holding our innards in tact and wiping away tears.

So, I expect that you are wondering what the art piece, memories of my dad's laughter, and a cone-shaped Madonna bra have to do with each other, let alone saying yes to myself more often?

As I see it, saying yes involves letting go, like blowing milk out of your nose because you can't contain your laughter. For many years, I was sure yes meant holding on tightly. In order to say yes I had to be absolutely sure. I had to plan things out in advance, know all the pros and cons. In essence, I had to wait. In that steaming puddle of doubt. Until I was absolutely sure that saying yes wouldn't kill me. Because saying yes means being visible to yourself -- and how many of us really want to see ourselves so vividly all the time? It's scary! It's like wearing that cone bra every day and knowing that people are staring.

But I've been beginning to ask myself, "So what?" I never really said that as a teenager and was rarely rebellious, so perhaps I am just coming into my so-what teenage powers now, but I'm finding it profound. Saying yes to yourself means letting go of constraints and those critical voices and worries about what others will think, and it means stepping into your eighth grade Converse High Tops, staring at the worried adult inside you, and saying, "So what!" Sometimes, when saying yes is concerned, back-talk is needed. And then laugh in surprise at the affection you suddenly feel for your self. Take that affection as a sign that you are saying, yes I am worthy, yes I am capable, and yes, oh yes, I am going to love the hell out of myself for a while.